I am watching the series “Brave New World”, created based on the novel with the same name, by Aldous Huxley.

Oh how much can art reveal Reality… I have been lost in the social constructions of Reality for so long. I don’t feel myself. My “soma” is video games, youtube and porn. Therapists don’t understand. I myself forget. I am not in touch with Reality. With isness. With being-in-the-world. With the moment. With my feelings. With my personal will.

I have become traumatized lately. By the police. I went to jail for carrying psilocybin mushrooms. This event has had numerous effects on my psychic life – my emotions, my process of thought, my attitude towards things, and my behavior. I have not yet made complete sense of it and my own psychic situation is vague to myself, but I want to recover sooner. I have work to do. REAL work. Work related to the heart and the intellect.